It Just Is

I just wanted.....we just didn't.....no words will come out.

I thought I needed.....but it isn't true.....and he still doesn't want me.

Acceptance of this.....I didn't want to know.

Now what? We're not....I'm not.....it falls apart....everything.

I sit here.....not knowing....surrender to what? How can I......I'm so very flawed.

If only......I could just have another chance......it wouldn't matter. It's not real. None of it was ever real.

And now.....I sit....waiting it out...for what? What's the point? There isn't anything I can say......

I need to set myself free. The walls are coming down.........crash.