My coworker got a call from a California woman who was concerned that her stove was beeping. After my co worker asked her many questions about her oven, she finally figured out that the range top was actually “clicking” because the burners were not igniting right away. The customer then asked if there was a ‘Safer Way’ to get the flame going. Again, my co worker was very confused and after more questions, figured out that the customer had got the burner to light and left it on all day, even when she left the house. WTF PEOPLE??? Obviously, the unit isn’t functioning properly and she needs a service call, but the bright customer just decided to leave the burner unattended all day. This proves to me two things:
1.Trophy wives do exist, because who else would marry someone with little common sense and wit.
2.I need a new job asap.
On a sad note, my other co worker’s grandma died last night. Sad, it’s triggering a lot of feelings from when my grandpa passed away in February. I was at his grave this past weekend, it still doesn’t seem real.
Friday, August 10, 2007
Monday, August 6, 2007
Her Tower
All her life, she held a little too tightly to the illusions she thought she needed,
unknowingly shadowed by all that surrounded her.
Hidden inside a false reflection of biased apprehension, she bound herself inside a tower, only to look out when the stars reflected over the pond.
As the storms crashed, she began to enjoy the lightening concluded with a huge raucous of thunder. Destiny brought it to her every time she asked for a sign.
She turned away as she began to fear the storms. Back into herself, but illuminating love. This is all she knew.
They began to appear to teach her to look inside as she chased the iridescent dragonfly's wings of change. And she heard unfamiliar thoughts. She turned around and realized the illusion of false imprisonment and recognized her own light. Who will see me shining? She wondered.
She pushed open the gate without strain and let go. She then knew that love was greater than fear and smiled her smile.
unknowingly shadowed by all that surrounded her.
Hidden inside a false reflection of biased apprehension, she bound herself inside a tower, only to look out when the stars reflected over the pond.
As the storms crashed, she began to enjoy the lightening concluded with a huge raucous of thunder. Destiny brought it to her every time she asked for a sign.
She turned away as she began to fear the storms. Back into herself, but illuminating love. This is all she knew.
They began to appear to teach her to look inside as she chased the iridescent dragonfly's wings of change. And she heard unfamiliar thoughts. She turned around and realized the illusion of false imprisonment and recognized her own light. Who will see me shining? She wondered.
She pushed open the gate without strain and let go. She then knew that love was greater than fear and smiled her smile.
Peices of the Puzzle
It seems to me that relationships are a lot like putting together a puzzle.
My grandmother taught me to always put together the frame first. It's a solid foundation to build on and where all the fun stuff connects. Without the frame peices, you really have no support and you start to build of off random peices of nothing that don't make sense yet.
Once the frame is established you start to fill in the middle area. There are many different peices. Sometimes you come across a peice or entire section that fits effortlessly and blends in beautifully with the picture. You don't have to rearrange or spend a lot of time and effort making these peices fit. The connection is simple.
Then you come across a peice that doesn't fit no matter how hard you try to jam it in. You spend tons of time and effort, short of super gluing the peice in. You are positive it will just fit with a bit more manual manipulation. Sometimes you have to walk away for a bit, and when you come back, you realize all you had to do was turn it the other way and it fits perfectly. Sometimes you have to laugh at yourself when you realize this peice got mixed up from another puzzle box, and needs to go back to where it came from because it doesn't fit with the puzzle you are currently working on.
A lot of times, peices come damaged. The coating is torn off, the edge is broken. You think, if only this peice wasn't broken it would fit perfectly. With tender loving care, the peice can usually be worked into the whole puzzle. Sometimes it may have to go through an entire new process of renewal before it will fit. But the beautiful thing is that a space is saved for this peice, because only that specific peice will fit in the spot intended for it.
A lot of times peices go MIA. It's almost unexplainable. Maybe it was dropped on the floor or maybe it just hightailed it out of there in your dog's mouth or something. Anyway, no matter how hard we want the puzzle to be complete, without this peice, we feel an abscense. It's impossible to find another peice that fits, unless you handcraft a new one. Most of the time, the missing peices will turn up again. Maybe it's a year later in a couch cushion, or you just randomly come across it on the kitchen floor. A lot of times the peices are returned to you worse for the ware, because they've been stepped on, abused and out of sorts. That's because the peice was everywhere but where it truly needed to be: in the puzzle. But like the damaged peices, there is a space where it belongs and always will.
Relationships are like building a puzzle. Without all the people in your life that you need, it is incomplete. You can try and try to fit other peices into it, but the peices that truly belong will find the way back to the space that they need to be in. Trust that. I do.
My grandmother taught me to always put together the frame first. It's a solid foundation to build on and where all the fun stuff connects. Without the frame peices, you really have no support and you start to build of off random peices of nothing that don't make sense yet.
Once the frame is established you start to fill in the middle area. There are many different peices. Sometimes you come across a peice or entire section that fits effortlessly and blends in beautifully with the picture. You don't have to rearrange or spend a lot of time and effort making these peices fit. The connection is simple.
Then you come across a peice that doesn't fit no matter how hard you try to jam it in. You spend tons of time and effort, short of super gluing the peice in. You are positive it will just fit with a bit more manual manipulation. Sometimes you have to walk away for a bit, and when you come back, you realize all you had to do was turn it the other way and it fits perfectly. Sometimes you have to laugh at yourself when you realize this peice got mixed up from another puzzle box, and needs to go back to where it came from because it doesn't fit with the puzzle you are currently working on.
A lot of times, peices come damaged. The coating is torn off, the edge is broken. You think, if only this peice wasn't broken it would fit perfectly. With tender loving care, the peice can usually be worked into the whole puzzle. Sometimes it may have to go through an entire new process of renewal before it will fit. But the beautiful thing is that a space is saved for this peice, because only that specific peice will fit in the spot intended for it.
A lot of times peices go MIA. It's almost unexplainable. Maybe it was dropped on the floor or maybe it just hightailed it out of there in your dog's mouth or something. Anyway, no matter how hard we want the puzzle to be complete, without this peice, we feel an abscense. It's impossible to find another peice that fits, unless you handcraft a new one. Most of the time, the missing peices will turn up again. Maybe it's a year later in a couch cushion, or you just randomly come across it on the kitchen floor. A lot of times the peices are returned to you worse for the ware, because they've been stepped on, abused and out of sorts. That's because the peice was everywhere but where it truly needed to be: in the puzzle. But like the damaged peices, there is a space where it belongs and always will.
Relationships are like building a puzzle. Without all the people in your life that you need, it is incomplete. You can try and try to fit other peices into it, but the peices that truly belong will find the way back to the space that they need to be in. Trust that. I do.
Monday, July 30, 2007
My best call yet!
Today I had a customer call in to see if he could change his refrigerator into a wine unit. WHAT?
Conversation:“I can’t get my refrigerator to go above 42 degrees.”
“That’s because the thermostat and control board are regulated for that unit to be set between 34-42 degrees. You can’t change that.”
“I want to turn my fridge into a wine unit.”
“What?”
“I want to make it a huge wine storage and set it at 55 degrees.”
“That isn’t possible; our wine units have a completely different sealed system and control board.”
“There isn’t a way for the technician to change that?”
“No.”“I don’t believe you.”OK then….At this point I transferred him to our company tech because I couldn’t even handle it. I’m going to call Cannon tonight to see if I can turn my digital camera into a digital video camera. I’m also going to call Oldsmobile to see if I can get my Alero to turn into a hybrid.
Conversation:“I can’t get my refrigerator to go above 42 degrees.”
“That’s because the thermostat and control board are regulated for that unit to be set between 34-42 degrees. You can’t change that.”
“I want to turn my fridge into a wine unit.”
“What?”
“I want to make it a huge wine storage and set it at 55 degrees.”
“That isn’t possible; our wine units have a completely different sealed system and control board.”
“There isn’t a way for the technician to change that?”
“No.”“I don’t believe you.”OK then….At this point I transferred him to our company tech because I couldn’t even handle it. I’m going to call Cannon tonight to see if I can turn my digital camera into a digital video camera. I’m also going to call Oldsmobile to see if I can get my Alero to turn into a hybrid.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
I am ready now
This weekend I participated in a workshop at Tibia massage school. It was a workshop based in Foundations of Healing, where the format produced a space to heal and let go and transform. It was probably one of the most moving experiences in my life. I really feel like a new woman after this weekend.
There were so many things in my life that have been hurting so much lately. I know now that the events have led up to this transformation and healing. I know now I needed that last push away to heal myself and start moving in a new direction.
I went into the workshop with a stuck mentality, a negative attitude and complete skeptism. The facilitator is intuitive and with all the mixed messages I've been getting with that stuff lately, I wasn't looking forward to it. I know now its because it is exactly what I needed, and my negative ego/personality traits were drawing me away from healing and figuring it all out. I needed to find a balance and I think I found that this weekend.
The group was very diverse, which made it great. After we filled out worksheets about our greatest fears, what we were afraid of having and the like, it was really interesting to see common patterns in my life come up for me. This upset me, because now that I was becoming aware, I just wanted to FIX everything and DO something and make it all ok. I learned to surrender. It creates a space instead of trapping it.
We did an exercise where the facilitator intuitively selected music to assist us with just allowing emotions and messages come to the surface. I again needed to "test" myself and I asked for a message in the next song for me. There has been something on my mind constantly, and the the song that played was exactly what I needed to hear to let it go. It was amazing, and I was like wow, I knew that was for me. After that, I asked her why it is so hard to let go, and she said that the song was for me, and that I shouldn't take it literally, but just know there is healing occuring and it is exactly as it should be, which I needed to hear.
We did an exercise where we had to practice being present in the moment. It was awful. We had to take turns with each person in the class and just keep eye contact and not say ANYTHING..and just be present and notice what comes up. This taught me the most about myself. I was so extremely uncomfortable. I noticed all my insecurities come out and reminded myself how I look away a lot when I'm talking with somebody because it produces so much emotion for me. When I was paired up with one of my best friends, we just cried and cried. We are such a mirror for each other, and there comes a point in everyone's life where we just have to realize how connected we all are, no matter what drama comes up or what occurs in our relationships. The realization that there is so much more than meets the eye. We can avoid it time and time again, and there it will be, back in our face to deal with.
I went home feeling pretty great. There was a girl in the class that wasn't grasping anything about what was happening, and I was able to relate it to her in a way she understood. It was awesome.
The second day was by far the most amazing. We did another intuitive music session. Now, music has always been important in my life, but somewhere along the line I lost my voice. I'm a singer, and I get scared to sing, I get shy. I don't know how/why this happened. The facilitator said this music was going to be a lot more emotionally charged than yesterday's. I was doing pretty well keeping things in check, but then a few songs really triggered some deep emotions inside of me, but it's what I needed to hear for there to be a clearing, for those emotions to be triggered, so they can be cleared away and figured out.
The most profound moment came when there was patriotic music playing and I heard my grandpa that passed away that I need to sing more again. I used to sing the national anthem in high school and college, so it was pretty fitting. I wrote down on my paper, "Do what you LOVE, sing." The facilitator then came over and told me to go over and sit by my friend and SING. I couldn't believe it. That's how I know this was coming from such a sacred, beautiful place. We sang the next song together and cried through it, but it was so great to have found our voices again, and we needed each other to do it. It was incredible. It was so healing and so amazing.
I got lots of advice about my confusion lately and learned the difference between getting messages and signs from somebody's higher self and what it presently occuring. That cleared up pretty much everything for me, and I was just able to let go and just be and pay attention to theses patterns and emotions coming up. We talked so much as a group about just life and everything and AHHH it was just so incredible. I've never felt so free and something HUGE lifted out of my solar plexus and I feel a million times lighter, I feel myself. I feel connected. It was interesting because when we've done reiki, a friend of mine noticed that block in me, and he tried to move it, and it helped, but I was the one who had to do it for myself and let it go.
At the end of the workshop we just shared some more of what we were feeling. When my friend and I were singing, the girl who didn't "get this" had a lot of stuff come up and felt we were singing for her. We were singing for us....but were we really??? She needed to hear that too, and well the space was created for it. Beautiful.
I've learned so much this weekend about myself and others. I think the biggest thing I've learned is that as humans, we all face the same insecurities, anxieties, blissful moments, etc...they just manifest and play out in different ways. It is great to get to the level of just being real with someone, which I felt really occured this weekend. It was great because all that was facilitated was a space to heal and learn, we did it all on our own...we weren't told anything. It was genuine. It was love. And I feel my connection again. And I've realized how I made mistakes always wanting to fix everything for everyone. I was able to be honest and kind with myself and recognize it. I'm human, we all are, we make mistakes. It happens.
I don't think I've ever been at a better place than I am right now. I needed this weekend. It was truly transformational. A lot of times I think we don't want to admit there are things we need to work on with ourselves and hide it in so many different ways, whether it be staying really busy or drinking and drugs or whatever. But I learned this weekend once you can acknowledge that part of yourself and feel it and use the tools presented to help yourself, clearing it out is much easier than I thought.
The last song she played before we left was actually a song I used to sing with my two best friends all the time when we led the church praise team. I couldn't believe it. It's not a popular song and I knew it was for me to remember that people come in and out of our lives for a reason, but we are always connected. I just needed that reminder. Life is beautiful, it really really is. It's really important to get clear with yourself. I'm happy to be on my way and learning ways to do so and have such amazing supportive relationships around me to have created this space.
Friday, July 27, 2007
Connection
I was out and about last night, at a Bon Jovi/Guns and Roses tribute band concert, of all places!! But I was with my favorite boys in the world and we had a blast!! I saw this lady with a beautiful dragonfly tattoo on her back, almost in the exact location I want to get mine. I kept staring at her, thinking there could be a lot of meaning or no meaning at all in seeing this dragonfly. So I did what I felt I should do. I went up to her and told her I loved her tattoo. She and I stared at each other and she just gave me a huge hug. It was like we just “knew” something that nobody else in that room did. I’ve never met this person before, but it was just an awesome moment. One of those moments, either sent by the Divine, or probably just random coincidence. Either way, it was inspiring to know in one way or another, we are all connected.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Life is a Theater-Invite Your Audience Carefully
My supervisor at work is like an older brother to me, he is probably the most amazing person I have ever met. He came over here from Senegal, has six siblings and is a black belt instructor in Tae Kwon Do. He's fluent in three languages and just won the national championship in Tae Kwon Do on a sprained hamstring and ankle. I really look up to him and today he came up to me and handed me a couple of things he found that reminded me him of me.
Not only am I amazed at his accomplishments, I'm amazed more so of how much he cares about other people and does whatever he can to help and to inspire others. He told me he's been where I am at, and any time I need someone to talk to, he's there.
This is the hand out he gave to me and I thought it was really great...
Life is a Theater-Invite Your Audience Carefully
Not everyone is healthy enough to have a front row seat in our lives. There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance. It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go of, or at least minimize, your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not-going-anywhere relationships/friendships.
Observe the relationships around you. Pay attention. Which ones lift and which ones lean? Which ones encourage and which ones discourage? Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill? When you leave certain people do you feel better or feel worse? Which ones always have drama or dont' really understand, know or appreciate you?
The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you, the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the front row and who should be moved to the balcony of your life. "If you cannot 'change' the people around you, change the people you're around."
~Author Unknown
I've began a new meditation practice that has been very beneficial. It's about learning to meditate on your breath, only focusing on the present moment. By not living in the past or future, I feel is really going to help me focus on what I need to, and everything else will naturally fall into place. It's hard work looking within, but worth it.
Not only am I amazed at his accomplishments, I'm amazed more so of how much he cares about other people and does whatever he can to help and to inspire others. He told me he's been where I am at, and any time I need someone to talk to, he's there.
This is the hand out he gave to me and I thought it was really great...
Life is a Theater-Invite Your Audience Carefully
Not everyone is healthy enough to have a front row seat in our lives. There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance. It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go of, or at least minimize, your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not-going-anywhere relationships/friendships.
Observe the relationships around you. Pay attention. Which ones lift and which ones lean? Which ones encourage and which ones discourage? Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill? When you leave certain people do you feel better or feel worse? Which ones always have drama or dont' really understand, know or appreciate you?
The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you, the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the front row and who should be moved to the balcony of your life. "If you cannot 'change' the people around you, change the people you're around."
~Author Unknown
I've began a new meditation practice that has been very beneficial. It's about learning to meditate on your breath, only focusing on the present moment. By not living in the past or future, I feel is really going to help me focus on what I need to, and everything else will naturally fall into place. It's hard work looking within, but worth it.
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